NayRa

NayRa: The NeW mE : الآن قد بدأت الشئ الجديد الذي كنت أريد ان ابدا  الآن قد عرفت طريقي  الآن و الآن فقط أنا حره  الآن اعرف ماذا سأفعل  أعرف كيف يمكنني...

الآن قد بدأت الشئ الجديد الذي كنت أريد ان ابدا  الآن قد عرفت طريقي  الآن و الآن فقط أنا حره  الآن اعرف ماذا سأفعل  أعرف كيف يمكنني توجيه حياتي  و لكن الفرصه هذا ما أنا بحاجه إليه  ربما بعض  الشجاعه  و كثير كثير من الصبر و هذا ليس بالشئ الهين  ليس سهل أن يتوفر  قد قاربت ساعه التخلص من كل العقد  كل ما يشوه النفس  لم اعد أهتم كيف ينظرون إلي  لأني لم أعد كما كنت لم أعد ابكي  لم أعد أنا  و الآن  علي البدء بالرحله  للمره الثانيه   علي ان أكتشف نفسي  علي أن اري معدني مره أخرى  صعب  أعرف و لكن سأحاول  وحدي  و لكن  سأحاول   Nayra 

Angela is a good spirit that came from heaven to help Andrea not to kill himself ... that is a French  movie that was on foxmovies last night.   it's  in black and white ... the story is there is this guy Andrea Mossa who lives in Paris tries to jump from a bridge because he is so depressed and he has no money..  there is this prostitute who saves him.  she is 180  tall girl.. blond and pretty and does not have much cloth on ... She told him she is his reflection ,she can see through him ,she can see kindness and and sweetness and great kind of love and this is all feminine. And he has the worst manly features.... greed , lies , ambition and fear of failure ..  I am talking today about that particular scene when she takes Andrea to that public bathroom and put him in front of a mirror and teach him to see himself ..  she says what do u see in the mirror ?  he says a beautiful girl .. she says what's next to the gir...

One day we will be able to feel that feeling that every body talks about ........... that feeling of satisfaction ...... why am i never satisfied????????????  i really don't know , my mom said i am selfish ... my friends said i am dreamy .. i think that the work is not the place that will give me satisfaction , however that does not answer the question  WHY  THE HELL I AM NEVER SATISFIED ? is it only me or it's all of us ..is it a human nature or it's me being greedy ... oh shit i am so bad i am so sick .......... HAY wait a minute if i don't want more  then i am a loser  if i don't look for more i will never go somewhere better and higher ..if i am satisfaied then i am ready to die ....... so satisfaction is not really a good thing ... no it is but just not for me ... my dreams goes beyond the sky so is it bad .. hell no .. so how can we reach the sky? hmmmmmmmmmm there is steps to go up  1- defined what u look for  ...in o...

STREAM keeps getting better and better no salary no shit this is not humane treatment.... OPS i am so fu***** mad right now i feel like this is as my friend streamliner Sammer said " liquid shit"  :O this is totally agly and irritating and shitttttttttyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

قال الحكيم الجامعه  للحب وقت  و للجد وقت  و للعب وقت  و للكذب وقت و للحقيقة المره وقت  و قال السياسي التاجر التعلب  صدقت!! للكدب وقت  وللحقيقيه الكذب وقت  و انا اللي بالحكمه الغبيه ضقت  و اتخنقت  نطقت " أشهد أن لا ................ ِشهقت  الموت مالوش وقت الموت في كل وقت  سيد حجاب 

nara be good  that is want we really need to say to our selves every morning ..  be good .. do good .. which is totally not available because of our great nature ..  we are being lazy and sleepy and winy about our doooooomed  lives , but that is the  fact that we get paid to be slaves ... no body cares .. but  just remembered that song from that movie ..  back to futer johnny be good .. so johnny be good .. take it easy and take a deep breath and just  be good thing are going to work out some how during the emptiness and the wested time and life .. being bored is a bitch so as getting up every morning to go to work ,,, But that actually takes true courage to take that step and wake up and go to work .. or maybe that is what i am telling my self so i can feel better about my life which actually doesn't exist so .. dam it all i will do some thing new ,,,, no more be good ,,, be bad .. hay this isn't Michael Jackson ,, bad  ...